Anyways, I'm writing this, because I feel that one certain friend is withdrawing further and further from me.Now, maybe I should go into a little more detail:
I met this girl online, and she's always been really nice to me, we were very nice friends, so I thought I'd introduce her to my other friends as well, because I thought they'd like each other.
This happened one year ago. They DID like each other and the five of us (later 6, as she added her own friend too, she is also a lovely person) were very happy talking to each other...
Now I regret it. At first, she stopped writing to me, but sometimes she does that when she's tired and things like it, so I ignored it. Later, one of my friends told me that she hardly ever responds to her when she tries to talk to her.
Turned out, she just was feeling really scared when the two of us tried to talk to her. I don't know why, she didn't know why either. I don't blame her at all actually... I mean, we all have our moments, right?
Then, both of the friends I mentioned above, started playing Dream Of Mirror Online. They told me it was a wonderful game, so I tried to install it, but it kept giving me an error, so I couldn't do it. I just thought "(￣- ￣ ) ﾝｰAh, well, it's just a game, I need the space in my computer anyways".
So everything seemed to be going nice, but those two friends kept on playing it and chatting in game (As you probably guessed/know, it's an MMORPG), but they barely wrote to me
. Even when I write to them, they hardly ever write to me, unless they're REALLY bored. If I ask them why they're not responding, they're either tired, or just "too lazy"... The first few times I was ok with it, but then I started to wonder why in the world are they always tired/lazy when ~I~ write to them?! (Oh, by the way, I drew my real self instead of the blog's gijinka here)Then the first friend I started talking about kept on changing her screenname to how much she loves the other friend. It's like both of them have forgotten about me and now only like each other.
Now, I know it sounds weird that I only write to them, but the first friend lives abroad and the other one lives 500km away from me. She came here a week ago... Well... NEW PARAGRAPH TIME *headdesk*
She was here last year too. She was nice, lively and happy. This year, she's completely different. She's lifeless, emotionless and doesn't enjoy life. Nothing interests her. Well, it seems drugs, alcohol and sex make an exception. I hope it's just me though. Even her speech has changed! Last year she used to say the proper Bulgarian words for some things, now she's using dialect words. Her grammar is horrible, while last year she used to correct people about it. She also uses the Bulgarian word for "fuck" every 2-3 words...
Maybe it's her new school, I don't know, but it was like I was with a different person...
Also, one of my best friends is moving away too. The rest of my friends are people I love, but barely meet.
I'm thankful that I have imaginary friends though! If it wasn't for them I'd be so lonely... Yes, I think it's better to have imaginary friends instead of no friends.Like the girl on the left for example, she's Sasaki-san (Her first name is Kotoko, but she doesn't like it when people use it...) . She's about as big as my hand. ﾟ▽ﾟ She's pretty tsundere, so sometimes she gives me the cold shoulder, but she's very nice to me nonetheless... Still, she never goes easy on me or Momo-chan (another imaginary friend of mine whom I love very much) and often calls us idiots... (;･∀･)
But we both love Sasaki-san very much ♥
Anyways, I'm probably getting boring by now, so I should stop here... But first here's a little picture of a black sheep I drew when I was bored (I'm sorry, I cannot draw animals >_<;;;; But please give it some love, the herd hate it because it's black) :
Thanks for reading!
~Sushi-tan (^.^)v
P.S. I see Sasaki-san's picture seems really bad, but I don't know why it happens! I tried to fix it, but still... Maybe it's too big OnO;;;;
